Yesterday was just a bad day! Maxx screamed all day. Late in the afternoon he ended up with a 103 fever. I called the exchange and we ended up at urgent care. He has an ear infection AGAIN! We go the 27th to the ENT to talk about tubes.
I had big plans for the day, dishes, cookies, pretzels and a few other things. Didn't get any of them done because of dealing with Maxx. The day was not a total bust though because I did clean under the dishwasher. It was NASTY. I scrubbed it and now it is so nice and clean. I also scrubbed the sides of the dishwasher and the cabinet next to it. We also have a three drawer organizer next to the dishwasher. I cleaned it and reorganized it,so at least I got something done.
Last night on the way home from urgent care we decided to stop at Arby's. It was 8pm and it was too late to cook. As we were sitting in the drive thru and Josie says, "happy meew" (happy meal). She just kept saying it over and over. It was the first time she has done that. I amazes me and it's sad that she knows a drive thru gets you a happy meal. The other night we ran to my parents house to pick something up, we were a few streets away and she starts yelling, "Nina's house, Nina's house". She knew where we were going. She is just too smart sometimes.
Today I received some disheartening news. One of the dads of a boy in Noah's class passed away yesterday. The boy also played on Noah's baseball team the first year Dan coached. His dad was only 38. It is just so, so sad!
Back in Oct. one of my college friends and his family were hit by a teenager on drugs. They lost their 4 yr old little girl. I haven't talked to my friend in several years and didn't even know his daughter, but I find myself crying from time to time over their loss.
Back in March (I think) my aunt Brenda lost her son Kyle. He was only 22. I didn't know Kyle very well, but still,, he was family.
If you know me well you know I am NOT a crier. I just don't cry. Some may say I have a heart of stone. When I was pregnant with Maxx I found myself crying all the time. It was the hormones. I couldn't wait to have him so I could stop crying. I didn't cry when he was born. The first time I cried after he was born was Jan 14th. The day we almost lost him. At that time, it seemed all I could do is cry. I have since gotten my heart of stone back.
I am finding with Christmas approaching, I am getting more and more emotional. I don't know why. It drives me crazy. I think about how Brenda won't have Kyle, Cameron won't have Makia, and Jeremy won't have Mick. Then I think about Dan being in the hospital and not at home, but at least I will still have him. I can still hold his hand, kiss his forehead and hear his voice. I still have Noah to try to make up jokes. I still have Josie to to yell, "mommy, mommy, mommy, mommy. Hi". I still have Maxx to hold, hug, smile at me and kiss.
I know at Thanksgiving I was finding it hard to be thankful. I prayed that God would give me and thankful heart, and he did. Now that Christmas is drawing near, all I can do is thank God. For my family, my friends, my home, my health. Too many blessing to name them all. For what ever reason my tears are overflowing with thankfulness and joy this year. So if you catch me crying, just ignore me. It's been a rough year on the Pingel Five, but it could have always been worse!!
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