Best Girlfriend

My name is Stephanie Pingel and I don't have a bff (best friend forever). There I have said it. I should feel better right? Well, I don't. It kills me. I wish so bad I had that one!

Now don't get me wrong, I consider my husband and mom my best friends. I cherish being able to be that close to both of them. I just want to have a close friendship with someone I'm not related to.

I used to have a bff. We were like sisters. She knew me better than anyone. She was the first one I called when I found out I was pregnant with Noah. She was my maid of honor and I was hers. We were so alike. We were meant to be bff's. I don't know what happened. Shortly after I got married she stopped talking to me. I have no idea what I did. NO CLUE! I wish I knew what I did so I could make it right. There are times I go to call her to tell her something or ask a question and I remember I can't, because we are no longer friends.

I have days when I feel so lonely. I know it's because I am missing my bff. The strange thing is that I don't really want her back, I just want someone to have as my bf. I find I get jealous of those who do have friendships like what I had and like what I want.

I want someone I can call anytime I need. Who I talk to everyday. Who I can go shopping with. Who I can cry with and laugh with. Who knows me better than I do. Who reads my mind. Who is like the sister I never had. Who can finish my sentence.

One day, I will have a best girlfriend.