As the old saying goes....

We have all heard it a thousand times, "If momma ain't happy, ain't no one happy". I am starting to find this true. I am also starting to find that, I'm just not happy. I know that I should be. I have 3 wonderful children, who make me smile and and light up my life. I have a nice home, a nice car and van. I get to be a stay at home mommy. I have a wonderful and handsome husband who would and does do everything for me. Maybe that's just it.. HE does everything...

I will be 33 in just a few weeks and when I sit here looking at my life I find that I am selfish, angry, fat and lazy. I don't do the dishes, laundry, cleaning, or cooking. I don't exercise. I try to take care of my kids, but am finding I don't do much of that either. I find I yell and grouch a ton. That is not what I want to be. I WANT to be Suzie Home Maker. I WANT to be that thin, hot lady I once was. I WANT to be that cool mom, the one where all the other kids wish I was their mom. I WANT to have a house that is full of kids all the time. I WANT my husband to be able to come home and not have to do anything, but play with the kids and relax after a long day at work. I WANT to Make My Home Happy!!

So how do I do this? Do I take baby steps to change? Do I just change myself all at once? I think I am going to do some of both. I want to change my mind set. Change my attitude!! While doing that I plan on taking things over one by one. Today I am taking over the dishes and laundry. OK that is two things, but it's a good start.

I have 3 kids. Noah who is 10, Josie who is 2 and Maxx who is almost 1. Noah has ADHD. I find with him I lose my patients very easy and I am very hard on him. I think he feels that since Dan and the babies came along he gets shoved to the side. (I had Noah before I met Dan). To an extent he is right. Two babies ages one and two take a lot of my attention. I tend to lean on Noah to help out too. So Noah is the one I am going to work on first. Take time for him more. Listen to him when he talks to me. Have some me and Noah time. Not ask him to be a big brother and let him be a kid. Be more patient with him. Hug him more. Tell him I love him more. Let him know how proud I am of who he is and is becoming. Let him know how proud I am to be his mom. Be a better mom to him. Be a happy mom for him.

This is going to be my journey of what I did to Making My Home Happy. Let's see if I can do it!