Trying to be Thankful....

Wednesday I did great. I got all of the laundry folded and put away. I also did the dishes and cleaned up. I was very pleased. Job well done, ME!!!



I got a call around noon from Dan's ENT. The results came back from his nose drippings sample we had taken in on Monday. It was positive for CSF (cerebral spinal fluid). He is going to have to have surgery again. I found this news a hard pill to swallow. After all that we had been through this year, I just could not get over the fact that it had not heal. God did NOT hear our prayers and cries and heal him. I just didn't understand this. I found myself angry at God. Wanting to yell at him and tell him off. I found I was having a hard time being "thankful" this year. Why would all this be happening to me and MY family. We are good people, trying to live good lives, trying to do good. It just seems that bad, after bad, after bad keeps happening to us. WHEN WILL THIS END???

Thursday came long and it was Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving, are you kidding me? What did I have to be thankful for? It was time for prayer and my dad asked what we were thankful for. I had to think a while, then it dawned on me. I did have Maxx this year, yes he almost died, but he didn't. I still had him to hold in my arms, kiss and hug. You see 9 months ago my aunt Brenda lost her 22 yr old son. She can no longer talk to, kiss or hug him. It just hit me that in Jan I could have understood her pain, but God spared Maxx. I know it's been a rough year on my household, but not even near as rough as hers. So what do I really have to be mad at God for, NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING. He has blessed me beyond measure this year, he gave me Maxx and allowed me to keep him. For that matter he allowed me to keep Noah, Josie and Dan for another year.

Even though Thanksgiving is over, try to be thankful in all things, everyday. That is my new challenge, to find the good in everything. No matter how bad things are in your life or your household, things can always be worse. Be thankful you have a family, home, food on your table, a job to go to. We are all blessed beyond measure. I know I am and I have so many things to be thankful for! I should have been spending my anger energy and praying instead, thanking God I still had Dan, and that he has not gotten sick from the leak.

Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is the will of God's for you in Jesus Christ
1 Thessalonians 5:18